Why no posts?

Well its been a hell of a week. I had planned to catch up on Tuesday with the days I had missed but to be honest its been a disheartening week. I weighed in on Tuesday at 261 pounds. What the hell does it take to lose weight around here? I'm burning 2000 to 3000 calories a day just exercising and I cant lose any bloody weight! Well at the end of May I did get a 40 mile ride and a 9 mile ride in.

So this week its been a spiral into oblivion. The weight loss threw me off, then my RA flared up so badly that by Wednesday I had to take some heavy pain killers. I took Tuesday off to try and get the pain under control. Then Wednesday I had to work and couldn't get my ride or swim in (If your job was to burn disks all day don't you think you could pull that off). Yes I said ride and swim, the quickest way to hurt my shoulders do these in the same day. I had a BBQ on Saturday so I tried to be flexible in my training. Thursday I did my bike ride and got a puncture right at the end. I did my fastest run on Friday and I got a swim in.

If something comes up that takes an hour of my day I find it hard to micromanage that and find a way to fit in what I had planned that day.

Saturday was a blowout, no run. Sunday was a blowout no Elephant rock and now swim. Boy am I down and pissed off. To top it all I have blown my diet too. Is it too much to ask to have 1 bloody week where I don't have to be flexible and can just eat and exercise without temptation or stress. Obviously it is!!!!

So whats the plan for this week? Who the hell knows, Its supposed to be a down week but I think I had one of those last week. Ill have to redo my plan and bake this a base week and start again. I have the mini haha at the end of the week which I was looking forward to but now its just one more stress factor.

I am so close to chucking it all right now I can smell it. Its hot I'm in a hell of a lot of pain. I'm out of shape, Even my all the knuckles in my fingers hurt. I had to take vicoden last week to relieve the pain. I need to get back on track, I need to know if I'm really doing this and most of all I need to stop bloody whining and get this all sorted out.

Lets see how this week goes.